Thursday, February 26, 2009

In Retrospect

Not long before the start of this blog, I was inspired to dig out some of my old, hand-written journals. Most of them, excluding the lock-and-key type diaries from the pre-complete sentences days, were composition books. The first one spans from grades fifth through eighth, most of its pages written with those once-popular milky pens, my handwriting changing throughout as I made constant efforts to "prettify" it. The very first page warns (spelling and grammar errors included):

If you dare open this notebook, boy you're asking for it! Even if you're a best friend, don't go any further! If you're a worst enimy or not a friend, I'll report you! I'm warning you, if I find you with this, or if I find out at all, you'll be sorry! I would reccomend you should shut this journal immediatly! Now! I'll find you! You better put this back in my backpack or desk now! I could be coming any minute and I'll kick your butt! Good-bye! Alright, I'm gonna catch you and don't say I didn't warn you! Don't come crying to me when you have a talk with the princapal or vice-princapal, go!

Clearly, I was scarred by the time not long before this was written that a classmate found and read my previous diary, and revealed my uber crush to the class, and, more importantly, to my crush. Oh, the memories. What's funnier, though, is that I went back a couple of years later and commented in the margins on the page, in all my milky pen-ness, writing things such as, "That is sooo retarded!" and "Wasn't I messed up?! LOL." At least I spelled "retarded" right. I think at one point within the diary, I actually explain to my future self what acronyms such as lol and ttyl mean. You know, in case I were to ever go senile.

Several pages later, I write an entry titled "Spying." In it, I'm creeping on kids in the class, describing their every move:

Amanda-- Getting all discusted over a weird-looking penut butter and jelly sandwitch
Brandon-- Also discuted

Amanda always has this stupid look on her face. Her nose crinkles up and her eyes squint tightly. It looks so idiotic! She also stuffs her bra.

Linda doesn't want to be Jocelyn's friend so she told her. Jocelyn begged her to be her friend so Linda said okay. Linda still doesn't like her.

You can't make this stuff up.

After I started this blog, I was inspired to find my old Xanga page and re-read all of those entries, too. These were even more painful (if not slightly more entertaining) to read, since they were written from middle school to parts of high school. I was at the peak of my Bon Jovi craze--for the record, I am still obssessed--when this online journal began, so there'd be the occasional post in which I'd talk about how depressed and miserable I was, worried there was nothing in life to look forward to, and end it with a seemingly ADD-induced "I LOVE BON JOVIIII!!!!!!!1" In later entries, I'd give (almost) every detail about how my then-boyfriend and I spent our one- and three- and five-month anniversaries and that we were so-ho-ho in love. I bet even my best friends didn't read that drivel.

It's always fun discussing your past selves with friends-- sharing stories about all the dramatic and awkward times, separating your current self from your past self, playfully poking fun at who you used to be. But if a younger version of me were standing right next to me, I think I'd be a little nicer. Maybe give myself a hug, then hand her/me a matching outfit.

As I was just finishing, the Corrs' "Breathless" came on my iTunes shuffle. My best friend and I tried out for the talent show in sixth grade to this song, braces and all. For the auditions, we brought in bean bag chairs, acting out a skit with telephones to our ears reciting lines like, "I think he LIKES me!" before bursting into song along with the Corrs. We didn't make the cut. We are still best friends, though. Guess we did something right.

Post partially inspired by author John Green's vlog about his old diary:

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

The Dreaded First Post

Well, here 'tis. My first blog post. Funny how you can spend hours--days?--trying to decide on the layout of a blog. The colors, fonts, "gadgets." (I really like the gadgets.) But as for the content? Not a whole lot of thought has gone into that part yet. (Can you tell? The title is, afterall, "Witty Title Here.") I've had ideas. I'd like to hope I have some interesting things to say, but I don't think I can be one of those bloggers who writes about one certain topic every day.

My first thought was to write about music. Music is a love of mine. My biggest. It seems like every other day, I find a band or song I've never heard before, but kind of like. And despite this and the fact that I visit music sites every day, attend concerts fairly regularly, and am what Fools & Horses (more on them later, I'm sure) call their intern, I don't think this blog would be very good if it was only about music. Maybe it won't be good either way.

Another thought was pop culture in general. Pop culture interests me, to an extent. I spend way too much time on YouTube, and was just on Failblog for about an hour. I indulge in a plethora, a MYRIAD, of pointless websites. But why only post things other people have already posted?

Maybe my blog could be about the trials and tribulations of a college student-- "Dweller of the Dorms." Innovative. I could write about how, in the middle of writing this blog, my suitemate/friend came to visit. In the five minutes she was here, I discovered a piece of a Cool Ranch Dorito in my bellybutton. I showed it to my suitemate. She told me not to eat it (this hadn't crossed my mind until she mentioned it), so I ate it. Soon afterwards, said suitemate left to poop in our shared toilet. Ah, dorm life.

Honestly, most blogs are probably completely irrelevant. I know there are lots of writers out there starting a blog hoping it'll maybe somehow capture the attention of tens, then hundreds, then thousands of followers, and then, before they know it, they're being interviewed on Good Morning America. Well, it doesn't get much better than that. But, I'm not one of those bloggers. I doubt I'll get more than ten followers, like... ever. Luckily, this is mostly for my own enjoyment. My creative release, if you will.

So, I think I'll write about all of these things and more. Post the occasional link, photo, video, whatever I find important or stupidly funny. And when I'm feeling self-indulgent, I'll write about myself, damnit. 'Cause I can.